今天或明天，是蛋总的三七。这样的日子，我想适合祭奠。于是，倒了两杯酒，一杯给蛋总你的，用的是你来时喝酒用的那个芝华士赠品酒杯，倒的是上次喝剩的衡水老白干。坐在一起吃过数次饭的客厅里，在黑暗中独饮。同时也点上两根烟，虽然在一起的时候每次你都是一个人抽，也许你觉得我并不是个烟民吧。不过烟这个东西在某些时候确实有效果，尤其适合一个人静静的怀念。在烟雾缭绕中，思绪也就随之散发开来。

 

不过我终究不适合畅饮，因此偷偷的在自己这杯里面掺了一半水。哈哈，我知道蛋总你不会介意的，每次你找我喝酒基本上都是你自己一个人独斟独饮。再说了，你介意也没用，总不成跳出来鄙视我吧。最后一次跟你一起喝酒还不算远，春节后而已。哪天？不记得了，改天再翻日历确证吧。那天也是你想喝酒，于是咱俩去家乐福买了一些零食和衡水老白干，在那个阳光明媚的下午就喝将起来。虽然我实在是个很差劲的酒伴，不过你说不喜欢一个人在家独自喝闷酒，有人陪着就好了。严格来说这并不是最后一次，真正的最后一次应该是那次和lp、老蔡一起吃饭，喝完了大半瓶芝华士，你意犹未尽，又喝了小半老白干。不过我个人认为这次应该算是饭局而不是酒局。说起来，这半年还算跟你喝了好几次酒了，甚至见到了你喝的烂醉如泥的时候。今天这次，开始还每喝一口都先跟你碰杯，到后来就变成我自己独饮了，于是终究还是明白你已经不在了。

 

窗外，对面就是你曾经住过的地方。还记得刚搬来那阵子，你还没搬走，每天晚上回来的一大乐事就是和lp一起偷窥你的动静。也许算不上偷窥，毕竟看到你的同时你也能看到我们。大部分时候楼对面的风景都是你在厨房忙碌的身影。还记得某天蛋记厨房又开张时，看着你和锅碗瓢盆奋斗，我们开始打电话骚扰你。每次电话接通响了两声就挂断。如是几次以后，你终于明白过来，愉快的走到窗边和我们打招呼。还记得窗外遥望你的笑脸，这种邻居的感觉真不错，也难怪lp当初决定要租这个房子。然而实在可惜，不到一个月你就搬走了。我们实在有些郁闷，要知道我们可是非常期待一直跟你做邻居的吖。

 

说实在的，直到现在对你的离去还是没有真实感，即便已经经历了告别仪式和普佛的法事。还等着你给我们做号称很好吃很正宗的陕西扯面，还期待着再次跟你一起去吃pizza，还期待着约你一起去打羽毛球、一起健身，还期待着你亲手送我一套你的博士论文，也还期待着能够坐上你自己的车。。。你曾经说过的点点滴滴，如今已都无法再实现了。有时走在熙熙攘攘的街头，看着在这个季节生机勃发的一切以及忙碌来去的人群，看着多次走过的小区和街道两边的风景，蓦然想到一切依旧只是少了你的存在，总会有一丝伤感。

 

诸多心绪无法付诸于文字，就以下面这首歌结尾吧，希望你在另一个世界也能听到。

 

So, no one told you life was gonna be this way.
Your job's a joke, you're broke, your live life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear.
Well, it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year. But,

Chorus:
I'll be there for you when the rain starts to pour.
I'll be there for you like I've been there before.
I'll be there for you 'cause you're there for me too.

You're still in bed at ten and work began at eight.
You've burned your breakfast, so far, things are going great.
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these.
But she didn't tell you when the world has brought you down to your knees,that,

Chorus:
I'll be there for you when the rain starts to pour.
I'll be there for you like I've been there before.
I'll be there for you 'cause you're there for me too.

Chorus Bridge:
No one could ever know me, no one could ever see me.
Seems you're the only one who knows what it's like to be me.
Someone to face the day with, make it through the rest with, someone I'll always laugh with.
Even at my worst, I'm best with you. Yeah!

It's like you're always stuck in second gear.
Well, it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year. But,

Chorus:
I'll be there for you when the rain starts to pour.
I'll be there for you like I've been there before.
I'll be there for you 'cause you're there for me too.

I'll be there for you.
I'll be there for you.
I'll be there for you 'cause you're there for me too.